I Look for You

I look for you
but I’m afraid I look in all the wrong places
expecting to find you
in books
in journal articles
in my own ability to read a text and write a paper

I look for you
but I’m afraid you cannot be found
by impure eyes
by an unclean heart
by a stubborn mind

I look for you
but I am afraid
that you might not let me find you
of what I might have to give up to find you
that maybe you are not to be found

But I will keep looking

Show me the places where you live
Show me the people who live for you
But do not show me yourself…not yet…
I am afraid I cannot bear it

Just give me the ability to keep looking

Published in: on July 17, 2007 at 3:20 pm  Leave a Comment  

Why the Silence?

Why the silence?
Why can’t you just say something?
Anything?

I know that I too have been silent
but it’s hard to keep speaking
when I’m not sure you’re listening

But maybe that’s why you’ve been silent
maybe you have spoken, maybe you have shouted
only to have your words fall upon my deaf ears

Forgive my silence
and I will forgive yours
Heal my ears
and speak again
or shout
or scream
or whisper

I am trying to listen

Published in: on April 22, 2007 at 5:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

In Your Light

You are the true light
and you have sent your son
that we may see your light

And yet
we are a people who walk in darkness
mostly by our own choosing of course
but the darnkess is so enticing
and your light is a bit frightening

For in your light
no secret may hid
and no sin may be harbored
no matter how precious it may be to us

Bring us into your light
drag us if you have to
so long as we are there
exposed before you
vulnerable as we are

And let your light transform us
into children of light
that we may be light
to a world full of darnkess

Shine in us, through us, and with us
that all may see you

Published in: on February 11, 2007 at 3:51 pm  Leave a Comment  

Be Our Resting Place

Sovereign Lord
maker of Heaven and Earth
to whom praise, honor and glory are due

Grant that we may seek
and in our seeking find you
For you alone are worthy of the search

Forgive us God
when our eyes fall short of your glory
and rest on things below

Our eyes were made to rest on you
as we were made to rest in you

We are weary
So be our resting place

But how can we rest if we cannot find you?

Grant to us, gracious God, that we may seek
and in our seeking find you

Indeed, you alone are worthy

Published in: on February 11, 2007 at 5:57 am  Leave a Comment  

Turn Us Back

Forgive us God
when we have lost sight of you

It’s easy to accuse you of turning your face away
as if your righteousness were up for debate
It’s much harder to admit that it is we
who have turned our backs on you

And when we glance back over our shoulders
we find that you are not there
peering over to see what we are doing
You know all too well what we do when our backs are turned

So we pray God
turn us back

And when we turn and find you gone
do not stay gone too long
for we cannot bear your absence

Come back God
and we will try to keep
our shoulders squared firmly in your direction
and our eyes fixed on you
that we may follow

Published in: on February 5, 2007 at 3:24 pm  Leave a Comment  

Where Are You?

If you say anything
I will listen
If you even begin to move
I will follow

But right now God, I need something
a few words
a change in direction
anything

I need you
but I can’t hear you
nor can I see you

Why does it feel as though you are so far away?
Why is it so easy to forget?
Why is it so hard to follow?
Why are you not here when I call?
Where are you?

But I know that you are with me
with all that I am
And so I pray boldly
as I have before:

Speak, therefore,
and command what you will
I have followed you this far,
I will follow farther still.

Published in: on February 5, 2007 at 3:21 pm  Leave a Comment  

As You Lead Us

We try to walk by faith and not by sight

But every now and then we sneak a peak
just to see what’s ahead
just to know what to expect
just to make sure you are still there
leading us

And when we are able to catch a glimpse
of where you are leading us
sometimes we rejoice
sometimes we tremble
sometimes we must fight the urge
to run out ahead of you
as we must also sometiems fight the urge
to stop and turn back

But in you, Oh Lord we put our trust
So we follow

Forgive us Lord when our faith fails us
and we try to walk by our own sight
impaired as it is by our sin

Give us faith, Lord
that we may follow you, always you, only you
by faith
as you lead us

Published in: on January 28, 2007 at 6:47 pm  Leave a Comment  

As You Are

Lame, we ask for healing
Blind, we ask for sight
Deaf, we ask for hearing
Confused, we ask for understanding
Dying, we ask for life

We ask in confidence
because we know well the stories
of your faithful responses
to our unfaithful requests

But we know, too, stories that lack
the resolution of your answer
Stories that conflict us
when we try to speak of your faithfulness

Legs that cannot walk…
Eyes that cannot see…
Ears that cannot hear…
Minds that do not understand…
and death…ever present, ever threatening death

But even in these stories
we know your faithfulness is not far off
it is quite near, as you are
And so, in spite of our judgements
concerning your responses
we proclaim you as our Lord

For it is by that very proclomation that we
walk, see, hear, understand and live

Give us
legs to pursue you
eyes to seek you
ears to hear you
minds to perceive you
and life…life everlasting with you

Published in: on January 22, 2007 at 5:02 am  Leave a Comment  

We Long To See You

We starve for you God
for no food fills us as you do
We thirst for you God
for no drink sustains us as you do
We long to see you God
for you are our light, our life

Why then God do you turn your face from us?
Starving, we turn to less fulfilling foods
Thirsting, we drink and drink, never satisfied
Longing, we let our fleshly desires take over

God we need to see your face
even if your look scolds us for our sins

We need to hear a word from your mouth
even if your words scathe us for our unfaithfulness

We need to be in your presence
even if it completely overwhelms us

We need you God, so do not keep your face turned away

And we know that you won’t
Because we have read the stories
Stories of you
filling the hungry
sustaining the thirsty
showing your face at just the right time

We long to see you God
and we wait
impatiently
expectantly
hopefully

Published in: on January 20, 2007 at 5:42 pm  Leave a Comment  

Be Our Help

Helpess, God, we are helpless
like those tossed about in a storm
like those without a home
like those without direction
we are helpless

But you, oh Lord, are our help
you are our strength
you are our refuge
you and you alone come to save us

You calm the seas and the storms
You provide a safe place for us to dwell
You lead us to yourself

You and you alone are God
there is no other
And we understand this best
when we are at our most helpless

Oh Lord, our God, be our help

Published in: on January 20, 2007 at 5:36 pm  Leave a Comment