I Look for You

I look for you
but I’m afraid I look in all the wrong places
expecting to find you
in books
in journal articles
in my own ability to read a text and write a paper

I look for you
but I’m afraid you cannot be found
by impure eyes
by an unclean heart
by a stubborn mind

I look for you
but I am afraid
that you might not let me find you
of what I might have to give up to find you
that maybe you are not to be found

But I will keep looking

Show me the places where you live
Show me the people who live for you
But do not show me yourself…not yet…
I am afraid I cannot bear it

Just give me the ability to keep looking

Published in: on July 17, 2007 at 3:20 pm  Leave a Comment